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Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Saturday, November 1, 2008
In life, there's a time if stagnation and imobilization. You lazed on a specific things, and lay interest on the other. Feeling like a living dead, sometimes overflowing with happiness, sometimes unproductive and useless. And when you realize you are existing in a world of reality, it's hard coming back from where you really are.
From here, this post will be the last from this where I write. Not to be so emo or whatever, but I choose to be like this for a while. Afterall if i'd say I won't write blogs anymore, I knew I would lie and would break promises. Just now i've realized and appreciated the saying; "Life is a rollercoaster!" and I am one hell of it.
My blogroll will stay the same and I, will always be your enthusiastic reader as I always be. I'll just fix myself up as well as some people whom I think I've done wrong.
I love you blog friends! =D
Sunday, September 7, 2008
I got inspired by the event we've held last sunday night. It is our regular fellowship with my fellow youths and friends(called morethantwo or >2) about God and our spirituality but in a different approach. It was truly amazing! Praise God!
And uhmm... yes I'm here again. I had full ideas, emotions, rants, or whatsoever, so now I am transferring it to my blog. Low memory na kasi eh! LOL
-Photo is done by good friend Jars and is a property of >2.
Great minds are here:
I'll just pretend I am Legolas. I'm gonna shoot my arrows of thoughts in random. And yes! I am that guy in the left. LOL
I am back to the circulation. I've experience downtimes and the breeze of laziness. I decided to drop my PE class but they won't allow me since it was half way the semester. Good thing, some influential man in our school helped me. He'll set an arrangement to my PE prof for me to be able to pass it as long as I am concern with he subject. And surely I did grab the opportunity. And after series of school absences, I reap what I saw. Low midterm grades. But as I talked to some of my professors, I promise to get back and do what i should do. And as they see it, they are affirming that they're happy seeing me at my best again. Telling me I should keep it up!
We're doing good. Though my previous post is some kinda hateful post, I'm sorry. I sometimes blog the time after my father would scold me LOL. And that was out of emotions. Somehow it gives me the relief. But after a little time, I'm ok. It's just all part of growing up! I LOVE MY FAMILY!!
Still zero. I am now enjoying being single but being loved, by my friends. Oooh ok I'll be honest, I think I am presently infatuated. This is for me, different from having a crush. For me a "crush" is something not serious. I can even tell a girl(who I crush!! LOL for the term), I love her but not meaning it. It's just that easy. Uhmmm... This is the feeling close to love but I personally dun want it to happen. She's a good friend of mine and if loving her means losing her in the next months or years, I don't dare taking risks. This will do. I'll just let her be happy and be there if she needed someone to talk to. Naks! Emo! XD Besides, the reason of my previous breakup is that I don't want to hurt feelings anymore because I'm not good at relationships(romance, love).
I have lots of friends. Count the stars, my friends are no 1% of those LOL. So much blessed to have them. They're my treasures, my wealth. If only I could feature you here 1 by 1, I already did. And those that I am missing so much(Faye Nathanielle De Guzman! special mention wahahahaha). From all K.I., >2 geeks, and the brilliant execomm, my self-claim little sister Miles(Muwah!), the superb finance head Nanah! Naks kasali!! Basta sa lahat ng nakikita kong tao sa morga! HAHAHA Uhmmm...
Uhmm... Sad because some of my classmates decided to withdraw all their subjects for an unknown reason. One of them whose for me, the fairest among them all. She's one reason I go to school. LOL Well.. It's their choice.
My relationship to God is better since I got intact with my church again. And those friends may not knew it, but they inspired me a lot. And those church workers I looked unto. God has touched me. But I don't want to stop yet! I'm still hungry for more. I want to gobble more, wallow more. Give me more of Jesus!! Attend our fellowship and you'll see what I am talking about. :D
I think this is all for now. I'm starving! Godbless you :D
Friday, September 5, 2008
If only you weren't my father, I wish all the damn for you!!!
(my rants will I post the next time) GRRRRRR!!!
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
He is mighty to save!
My archives shows that I blog once a month. Then I call myself a blogger?? Disgrace! Oh well... Lately, most things happened in a fulfilling, satisfying,, and tremendous way. It's been a long time since I got active again on going to my home church. After some series of struggles, pain, disappointments, and hate, I am back to the square one where my soul truly belongs, to my savior Jesus Christ(don't worry, I'm still jiMboY the way I am. LOL). After a spiritual/emotional/physical/mental/social hiatus, I had a chance to talk to myself. I feel lonely, without purpose, I'm just living my life to be a part of the quantitative purpose of mankind.
Some christian band concerts were held. Hillsong, Passion, Sonicflood, and being at some of the those concerts was truly an amazing feeling. Each song will struck me as if God's saying; "Here's a smash that you'll surely ask for more!" and yes, God is faithful. He redeemed me of my heart's coldness ang anguish. Also a factor are those friends. Their burning heart and passion was infathomable that made me thinking, "We're not like this before. It is now huge and titanic youth foundation!" If you people I am talking about happen to read this, I thank God for each of you! So much blessed to have you as my friends. And Once again, I commit myself to God. My talent(a frustrated musician), my humors, my tiny sense of leadership, my not-so-popular journal, and all I have. NOW I SURRENDER!!!
rain, rain, go away!
It started again. I'm experiencing. I had this before but never did expect to feel this way again.
I'm tired of school! I lazed on it..
This is why I hop courses one to another and another and my college life is now in chaos. My mind changes like a 37 year old pre-menstrual woman and I cannot focus on a certain field or committment for a long period of time. If this is some serious psychological problem, then I admit I had it!
Eight days of texting infinity with a dime of worth. I lost my globe sim card and with that, I bought a TM one that I thought was cheaper and can now text my friends that are globe users. And it surely did meet my expectations. Some friends would poke fun at me that I was categorized to those hard working people(which I am not) because the network targets local market vendors, construction workers, jeepney drivers, etc. Well in fact I remember when I was 2 or 3 years of age, I remember my grandfather whose a jeepney driver back in Quezon, would sit me beside him in the driver's seat of his jeepney allowing me to hand him those fares from the passengers with my chubby little hands. Oooh.. so much to reminisce. I've got a lot of stories to tell so I am keeping every topic short as possible but I find it hard LOL. Ooops.. I almost finish this section without the thought of it. I had unlimited texting for 8 days which is supposedly just only 2. LOL. ang babaw!
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Now that you're gone, is only the time I've realized that I really really need you in my life. When I move in another place, I left you there waiting. Abandoned, just like a used paper towel. Now that you're not in me, I suffer. No one will ever help me do my assignments, No one will entertain my lonely nights, I feel like nothing else without you. There's no one I'll turn to when I have problems to confess. My fingers are stiff because there's no more you that I can play my fingers with. No more you, No more.. None!
Before I had you always in me. But now you are a luxury. Till then I realized how important you are in my life. I'm really really tired of this, please come back!
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Monday, July 14, 2008
A gossip of criticism from professors that is about me has reached my awareness. And with that, It gives me the urge to write things up. After all, it's been a month since I last blog. Really, as much as I wanted to blog my thoughts, every time I face my PC, laziness always hit me real hard. So I always end up with nothing. But after I heard a gossip about me from a classmate who refused to tell whoever professor it is(but doesn't really matter whoever it is. I just only want to know), I rush on things on how will I blog it given the fact that I am in school and class is ongoing. I got a pen, and draw one yellow paper and you probably know what comes next, I did the orthodox style of blogging which means I literally am writing my thoughts in a yellow paper. Surprisingly, I am starting to like it this way. (It is my NSTP class while I am writing this, and I should pretend that I copy notes and not blogging XD)
A while ago as I chat with a bully classmate/seatmate, he threw some questions regarding some of my previous doings and I think he's just curious about some things about me. I comply with his questions by sharing something that after I've studied two and a half years of college in an activist lurking university at manila, here I am, a demoted freshman in a catholic college as where we are(which I think is another explanation or another blog post). Another classmate happened to listen in our conversation. He commented, "Ah kaya pala."(His curiosity about "How could you simply answer academical questions without us seeing you study or reviewing?" finally ends.) Then said, "Pero alam mo Lester(my name in my birth certificate), may nagsabi nga na isang prof, matalino ka daw kaya lang ano..." Whatever "ano" it is, I did get the point and it surely means negative.
At one point, I am bothered. I know I am used hearing such words and even worse, maybe it's just that it had been a long time since I hear such words again. In the previous college I'm into, I learned to to fear professors, not to be afraid to commit mistakes and errors, don't mind failing. Though I fail some subjects, I passed most of them and surely have learned a lot.
"Matalino kaya lang ano.."
At present, I go to class late but I don't intend to. I seldom submit assignments(I laze on it), and would just secretly walk out of the classroom if not in the mood. But also, in class, you'll see me reciting and outnumbering others by words being recited and thoughts being shared. I stand out in class while everyone else seems lifeless. I get higher grades than any of them. My essays and narrations are very much applauded(while it was just a piece of crap for me). With all of these I think is where the criticism rooted.
I'm an evil trapped in an angels figure nor an angel pretending to be evil or whatever thing it is. I've got pair of wings and a halo but in me hides a pair of horns and an ugly tail. Always misconceived. I can be intelligent but I prefer not to be one. I apologize for disappointing people but I live a life that is me. I won't follow that SVO (Subject Verb Oriented -not sure about the last word) format they thought us when putting titles in my journals(I am the boss in my own blog LOL). Even the most non-sense title I'll insist! As long as I am happy with it.
I guess rules complete my existence. If there are no rules, there would be no individuals where I am categorized. And I am very sure you are too! XD